Hi Kristen,
I will try asking the universe again to clarify if this is a fit for me. I feel in my gut that it’s not but I don’t know what to do, I need to work! It is understandable now that I hear you say that a Thriver does not like pressure because I sure don’t! I didn’t want to have to think this hard either! I do medical coding and I went into this because I was in the field already and I was looking for a change so I thought I would try this. I should have known better because I hated the online classes that I had to take to get my certification but I figured it was better than going back to school for a degree. I am not a school person. Even though I am in the training phase I hate making mistakes and feeling like I am the only one who doesn’t get or has a hard time with it. I feel like my Lead is probably annoyed with me and thinks I shouldn’t be doing this. I know that is my gremlins speaking but I don’t know how to quiet him because I feel it’s true. I have a hard time convincing myself otherwise and I worry about what people think of me. I wish I could get to a place where I don’t care but I’m not there. I worry about when people judge me or my abilities, that is where my social anxiety comes in and I believe that is what holds me back from alot of things. I have been working on this most my life so far and have tried many different things with no real resolution or relief but I am hoping with this course that will all change. I don’t want to be dealing with this the rest of my life.