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Hey everyone! Haven’t posted on here in a hot minute but I’m struggling a little bit lately and thought I’d send out a request for suggestions, comments, crazy ideas, book recommendations…anything really! A bit of background info, I’m a firestarter through and through (literally every natural attribute, challenge and thing’s firestarter’s are attracted to, are adjectives I would use to describe myself). I’m going into my second year of college, changed my major(s) five times this year, went through some highs, mostly lows, but this summer I was fortunate enough to spend eight weeks in Europe traveling. Six of those weeks were spent at a study abroad institute where I was enlightened about my burning desire to travel and become fluent in French. Experiencing new ways of living, cultural norms, and cities while doing a lot of observing and a a little self-exploration via reading a few thought-provoking novels on my many hours on trains, planes, and buses, I felt like I was moving in the right direction. By the way, highly recommend The Culture Map by Erin Meyer and Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain. I returned to my hometown a couple weeks ago and have definitely been in the throws of post-study abroad depression. Before this summer, I was struggling to find clarity in what I wanted to do with my life and while I didn’t know what that was, living in Europe, I have never felt more centered and in-tune with the world…and no, I’m not talking about partying all the time or skipping class 🙂 I’m an introvert, maybe even a highly sensitive one, so staying out late club-hopping in Paris was not on my bucket list. My question for you all is how in the heck can I figure out what I could pursue that would make me feel fulfilled as a very independent, big-picture thinking firestarter when all I know is that I felt more alive and at home this summer abroad than I ever have at my university or even my home city. All I can think about, every day, is how inspired I feel by various young people I know who are fearless in the pursuit of their vision/business plan/start-up coffee shop/etc. and how conflicted I feel because I so desperately crave that kind of self-fulfilling autonomy but I can’t very well pursue a new career or business venture without a solid, strong idea. I’m dying to start the journey of making my vision a reality…I just can’t seem to figure out what that is exactly and I feel like I’m going to go crazy if I have to go another year at a college in a small town I don’t particularly want to be in without some sort of plan. I’d love any input anyone could offer, thanks guys!!